I don't know what to do with myself with all this free time on my hands.  I am so aimless, cleaning my room slooooooowly, with many breaks for facebooking and food (omg, i am going to gain so much weight over break if I don't find something to do with my time).  

I bought a pack of labels and I'm going to just start putting them on things.  I wrote someone a thank you card and labeled the envelope, "ENVELOPE."  Just in case. 

I want to send people things.  I want to make them feel better.  I want to go dancing, I want to get fucked up (FUCKED UP).  I'm throwing a holiday party with my friend Joshua which should be SO FUCKING RAD.  OMG.  Idk what the point of this entry is. 

LJ, I MISS YOU.  But I'm kind of happier now, so I'm not sure I'll be coming back the way I have in the past.  :/  Still, flisties, I will always love you for keeping me sane for so long. 

This guy contacted me on facebook a couple of days ago, Ethan, he used to be Laura's girlfriend, years ago, and now -- IDK.  I'm supposed to hang out with him and his girlfiend tonight, and I feel like the whole thing is just a little sketch.  Like, he seems really needy, apparently has no friends, and I find that whole having no friends thing a little odd -- like, what's wrong with these people?  At the same time, he contacted me to talk about how I changed my name and, oh, seem a little trans now, and like -- I don't have any IRL friends who are trans?  And maybe I should make some?  I don't know.  blah. 

But not having plans is fucking me up.  Basically.  I need to be way more busy than this. 

And -- I need a new computer.  Mine is officially a lost cause, the chasiss started breaking this week.  Then a hinge pop-pop-popped and now is doesn't seem to be working much at all.  I have... no idea where I'm going to come up with the money for a new computer from.  But I can't NOT have one, so.  : /  

But.  I'm still weirdly content in life right now, despite everything.  <33333


This may be one of the most unintentionally uncohesive things I've ever written. 

I find it really strange that I apparently know WAY more about event planning than all of Fall Out Boy and their management.  Um.  I'm also reminded of that time last year-ish when they had to stop showing certain images at their shows/rename their tour because of copyright issues.  GUYS.  On the other hand, successful event planning is still MOST of what I've learned in university, and I learned none of it in an actual classroom. 

I'm making this face a lot lately.  : /

Random question, but does anyone have a version of cobra's I Kissed a Boy without all the beginning and ending mixtape shit -- just the song part?

I am trying to make the most epic mix of all time and I need that song.

I kind of hate everything right now.

My Women and the Body teacher gave us a final project that requires anyone doing it to be cisgender.  When I pointed this out she gave me a different assignment which is to, "reflect over the time period in which you have made the transition away from traditional female-sex body norms." 

WHAT. THE. FUCK .

a) invasive
b) broad as hell
c) ;sdfhg;kjsdhg;dkjfgh;
d) I can't do this.  Or, I can, but WOW, i really fucking dont want to. 

I cannot deal with this week.  I WANT TO DESTROY SOMETHING.  I'M GOING TO CUT OFF MY HAIR.

Hey, you know what you should do?!  Check out wishforhome 's amazing queercore music exchange meme , happening over here.  OMG I AM SO EXCITED!!!

Its probably a bad sign that I want to get a twitter JUST to follow the QC characters.  right.  right?

ALSO. pintsize is WAY creepier in text form.

also, this is my favourite today. YES.

yesssssssssssss.

"a few things may rhyme with circus?"

also I got a tumblr if anyone cares: http://lilyliedtome.tumblr.com/

yes. everything i keep saying to the world is mostly just that. YES. YES.

I don't even know how to deal with how strange my life seems to have become. But hey, I might get to see Amanda Plamer in LA. And there's nothing better than nights spent talking, even if.

I really like how it seems like in every interview with that guy from twilight he talks about how dumb vampires are or how lame edward is. That makes me happy.

I need to go take a shower, put on clothes, and go to campus. I wish classes allowed for days I just can't force myself to leave the house - this is why i'm not doing well right now.

So, flist, what're your favourite high school and college aus? In any fandom -- show me yours and I'll show you mine (lol, lascivious)...

I just got sir'ed at the art museum. 


For some reason I keep wanting to use livejournal as twitter for people without phones - just little odd updates about my life.  That probably is really annoying.

It's that time of year again.  Thursday is Transgender Day of Remembrance.  Look out for a post about it tomorrow.

Making a mixtape for my sister; just realised i love Brand New. 

I've been meaning to do this for a while.

If you're into totally AWESOME rants about politics and... other things, then you should totally be friends with ethrosdemon. YEAH.

<3

So we got vonage as our home phone service a little while ago, and somehow this resulted in my not having internet at home for ten days.  The only thing I was able to do at all is check my email and write papers at the comp labs on campus.  IT SUCKED.  Then we got internet back, I was accepted to the painting school, the election happened (OMG OBAMA) and I didn't go home for three days because I scheduled too much, got sick, basically failed a class, and... here we are.  UGH LIFE.  LJ PEOPLE, I MISS YOU SO MUCH.  I feel like I'm missing a limb or something from being so out of contact.  :(

P.S. My favourite thing ATM is how hot Lance Bass looks in this picture.  Ahh, popslash.

So... I have a mohawk, sort of.  Guys, I cannot even convey how hot I look right now.  

"...I like your sounds, maybe even better than your skin, the way it just barely hides everything else about you, the way you're so fucking forever underneath your flesh."

I'm rereading arsenicjade 's TGAN for maybe the fifth time right now.  I love this story.  It is absolutely one of my favourite stories ever, and probably the only one I've reread so often.  If it were a book it would be dog eared and beat up from from so many rereadings and from living in my bag.  It is long and delicious -- each of the five parts on it's own is a complete story, and together they're perfect.  Also, JC, which was more of a draw when I was fresh from popslash, but I do still love fanon JC kind of a lot.  :D