lily lied to me

Mon, 05 Jan 2009 11:59:13 GMT

things things

Sun, 21 Dec 2008 00:34:45 GMT

I don't know what to do with myself with all this free time on my hands. I am so aimless, cleaning my room slooooooowly, with many breaks for facebooking and food (omg, i am going to gain so much weight over break if I don't find something to do with my time).

I bought a pack of labels and I'm going to just start putting them on things. I wrote someone a thank you card and labeled the envelope, "ENVELOPE." Just in case.

I want to send people things. I want to make them feel better. I want to go dancing, I want to get fucked up (FUCKED UP). I'm throwing a holiday party with my friend Joshua which should be SO FUCKING RAD. OMG. Idk what the point of this entry is.

LJ, I MISS YOU. But I'm kind of happier now, so I'm not sure I'll be coming back the way I have in the past. :/ Still, flisties, I will always love you for keeping me sane for so long.

This guy contacted me on facebook a couple of days ago, Ethan, he used to be Laura's girlfriend, years ago, and now -- IDK. I'm supposed to hang out with him and his girlfiend tonight, and I feel like the whole thing is just a little sketch. Like, he seems really needy, apparently has no friends, and I find that whole having no friends thing a little odd -- like, what's wrong with these people? At the same time, he contacted me to talk about how I changed my name and, oh, seem a little trans now, and like -- I don't have any IRL friends who are trans? And maybe I should make some? I don't know. blah.

But not having plans is fucking me up. Basically. I need to be way more busy than this.

And -- I need a new computer. Mine is officially a lost cause, the chasiss started breaking this week. Then a hinge pop-pop-popped and now is doesn't seem to be working much at all. I have... no idea where I'm going to come up with the money for a new computer from. But I can't NOT have one, so. : /

But. I'm still weirdly content in life right now, despite everything. <33333

This may be one of the most unintentionally uncohesive things I've ever written.

Wed, 17 Dec 2008 02:02:16 GMT

The kids are all fucked up. :(

Tue, 16 Dec 2008 09:36:07 GMT

I find it really strange that I apparently know WAY more about event planning than all of Fall Out Boy and their management. Um. I'm also reminded of that time last year-ish when they had to stop showing certain images at their shows/rename their tour because of copyright issues. GUYS. On the other hand, successful event planning is still MOST of what I've learned in university, and I learned none of it in an actual classroom.

I'm making this face a lot lately. : /

a present for everyone who is stressed out right now

Mon, 15 Dec 2008 06:49:20 GMT

SONGS ABOUT GETTING IN FIGHTS

pink - so what
the cramps - let's get fucked up
the faint - i treat you wrong
ok go - get over it
mindless self indulgence - lights out
chumbawumba - i get knocked down
dresden dolls - backstabber
marilyn manson - this is the new shit
bitch and animal - secret candy
cursive - the radiator hums
the donnas - get outta my room
anti-flag - spaza house destruction party
cobra starship - i kissed a boy
violent femmes - dance, motherfucker, dance
spider bait - calypso
sum 41 - fat lip
le tigre - get off the internet
limp bizkit - just one of those days
the prodigy - smack my bitch up
nirvana - you know you're right

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Fri, 05 Dec 2008 19:46:51 GMT

Random question, but does anyone have a version of cobra's I Kissed a Boy without all the beginning and ending mixtape shit -- just the song part?

I am trying to make the most epic mix of all time and I need that song.

throwing a fit

Thu, 04 Dec 2008 01:53:21 GMT

I kind of hate everything right now.

My Women and the Body teacher gave us a final project that requires anyone doing it to be cisgender. When I pointed this out she gave me a different assignment which is to, "reflect over the time period in which you have made the transition away from traditional female-sex body norms."

WHAT. THE. FUCK .

a) invasive
b) broad as hell
c) ;sdfhg;kjsdhg;dkjfgh;
d) I can't do this. Or, I can, but WOW, i really fucking dont want to.

I cannot deal with this week. I WANT TO DESTROY SOMETHING. I'M GOING TO CUT OFF MY HAIR.

"not gay as in happy, but QUEER as in FUCK YOU" music meme

Tue, 02 Dec 2008 06:28:59 GMT

Hey, you know what you should do?! Check out wishforhome 's amazing queercore music exchange meme , happening over here. OMG I AM SO EXCITED!!!

Mon, 01 Dec 2008 17:20:35 GMT

Its probably a bad sign that I want to get a twitter JUST to follow the QC characters. right. right?

ALSO. pintsize is WAY creepier in text form.

Mon, 01 Dec 2008 03:26:16 GMT

also, this is my favourite today. YES.

Sun, 30 Nov 2008 22:14:00 GMT

yesssssssssssss.

"a few things may rhyme with circus?"

also I got a tumblr if anyone cares: http://lilyliedtome.tumblr.com/

yes. everything i keep saying to the world is mostly just that. YES. YES.

I don't even know how to deal with how strange my life seems to have become. But hey, I might get to see Amanda Plamer in LA. And there's nothing better than nights spent talking, even if.

Sun, 30 Nov 2008 11:09:52 GMT

I really like how it seems like in every interview with that guy from twilight he talks about how dumb vampires are or how lame edward is. That makes me happy.

Wed, 19 Nov 2008 23:07:44 GMT

I need to go take a shower, put on clothes, and go to campus. I wish classes allowed for days I just can't force myself to leave the house - this is why i'm not doing well right now.

So, flist, what're your favourite high school and college aus? In any fandom -- show me yours and I'll show you mine (lol, lascivious)...

Wed, 19 Nov 2008 04:38:54 GMT

I just got sir'ed at the art museum.

For some reason I keep wanting to use livejournal as twitter for people without phones - just little odd updates about my life. That probably is really annoying.

It's that time of year again. Thursday is Transgender Day of Remembrance. Look out for a post about it tomorrow.

Tue, 18 Nov 2008 08:06:55 GMT

Making a mixtape for my sister; just realised i love Brand New.

PSA

Thu, 13 Nov 2008 02:01:43 GMT

I've been meaning to do this for a while.

If you're into totally AWESOME rants about politics and... other things, then you should totally be friends with ethrosdemon. YEAH.

<3

Wed, 12 Nov 2008 05:35:36 GMT

So we got vonage as our home phone service a little while ago, and somehow this resulted in my not having internet at home for ten days. The only thing I was able to do at all is check my email and write papers at the comp labs on campus. IT SUCKED. Then we got internet back, I was accepted to the painting school, the election happened (OMG OBAMA) and I didn't go home for three days because I scheduled too much, got sick, basically failed a class, and... here we are. UGH LIFE. LJ PEOPLE, I MISS YOU SO MUCH. I feel like I'm missing a limb or something from being so out of contact. :(

P.S. My favourite thing ATM is how hot Lance Bass looks in this picture. Ahh, popslash.

vain moment

Wed, 22 Oct 2008 20:31:57 GMT

So... I have a mohawk, sort of. Guys, I cannot even convey how hot I look right now.

Fri, 17 Oct 2008 07:20:37 GMT

Why do people suck so much?

Thu, 16 Oct 2008 19:54:09 GMT

OMG LOL

And England's like, "Okay, I'll come tip cows with you those look suspiciously like chickens."

And America's all, "THEY'RE COWS IF I SAY THEY'RE COWS."

Wed, 15 Oct 2008 19:44:43 GMT

"...I like your sounds, maybe even better than your skin, the way it just barely hides everything else about you, the way you're so fucking forever underneath your flesh."

I'm rereading arsenicjade 's TGAN for maybe the fifth time right now. I love this story. It is absolutely one of my favourite stories ever, and probably the only one I've reread so often. If it were a book it would be dog eared and beat up from from so many rereadings and from living in my bag. It is long and delicious -- each of the five parts on it's own is a complete story, and together they're perfect. Also, JC, which was more of a draw when I was fresh from popslash, but I do still love fanon JC kind of a lot. :D

A bunch of Ani albums in no particular order

Mon, 13 Oct 2008 16:03:33 GMT

Ani Difranco albums:
Imperfectly
Educated Guess
Evolve
Knuckle Down
More Joy, Less Shame EPs
Puddle Dive
Living In a Clip disc 1
Living In a Clip disc 2
Out of Range
Not So Soft
Reprieve
Swing Set EP
So Much Shouting, So Much Laughter disc 1
So Much Shouting, So Much Laughter disc 2
Canon
Dilate
Up Up Up Up Up Up

A - thanks to wishforhome for being the catalyst for this post
B - thanks to wearethestars for giving me a good half of these albums in the first place
C - there will be more added later, and maybe some album covers and a semblance of organization, but I'm rushing out the door right now, so... later!

Mon, 13 Oct 2008 07:05:47 GMT

Things I've had open in tags for way too long, but still can't seem to close, pt 1:

slodwick's re-post of this awesome thing.

wearemany's pete/patrick lesbian AU where they're both still boys.

so pete is in his fifth year of college -- he just finally realized that he had to be a gender studies major, had to, even if it meant he wasn't graduating yet. his favorite hangout is the lesbian-owned coffeeshop just off campus, which one night a week hosts poetry slams, which despite being we-shouldn't-have-to-say-this-you-should-just-get-it a safe space for womyn wordsmiths is pete's favorite place to share his newest writing. it's also his favorite place to meet chicks. and despite being a dude among many lesbians, it's also his surefire best chance of getting laid, because somehow he is the dude who every lesbian sleeps with once on her way to realizing just how little she likes dick. ("but i don't like it either!" pete always protests, before he has to listen to the lesbian of the week tell him how she finally realized she's in love with her roommate.) pete is alternately loved and hated by this poetry slam crowd, which suits him just fine.

Sun, 12 Oct 2008 01:45:40 GMT

Quickly! What's a good name for a gender issues discussion group?

Sat, 11 Oct 2008 04:41:57 GMT

facebook statuses I could have right now:

james never gets the girl.
james is listening to Cursive and remembering high school.
james should spend less time on facebook.
james: too much ice cream.
james would like to get trashed now, kthnks.
james is no longer nap nap napping.
james is blushing bright red (lol hobby).
james: somewhat queer, easily distracted.*

my actual facebook status:

james is Louis Garrel: still french, goddammit.

I work in the art office at my school and today one of the women I work with said, "I know whether or not you got into the program, but I CAN'T TELL YOU." Ugh, frustrating. I'm going to assume that means I got in, though, since she was smiling when she said it. Waiting for things sucks.

*this is what I came out as today for National Coming Out Day.